@Swantz, I wish it wasn't the trigger. But I am also a christian. So yeah...
I still have one more HIV test because I performed unprotected oral sex on a prostitute. I did start going to counseling as well, which has been wonderful for me. I am attending a wonderful church and am happier than I have been in a very long time.
@Kosh, I know, and that is why I ask if I would do it all over again if I were back at that point. And yeah, I was a miserable person. Deep in self loathing. But thank you so much for the congrats.
@Everyone, I hope no one does what I do period. Even more so, I hope no one does it and expect the same results.