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Off-Topic Discussion => General Discussion => Topic started by: Grimloq on February 02, 2005, 06:27:35 pm
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i'm so happy!
i really can't complain, for the most part. unfortunately, this digs me into my OWN little 'pit', where i feel guilty. makes me feel like i'm not ALLOWED to be depressed. so, i try to make it up in the only way i know how, which can often be somewhat self-destructive. my current goal in life is to outlive two of my friends (and you know who you are), so i can make sure they never do anything stupid. then what? i don't know.
the only thing that REALLY causes damage is how i can't help but absorb any of THEIR troubles, and then they quite literally become mine. the problem is that i can envision almost any situation with almost anyone (part of the reason for rotten nightmares, methinks), so if somebody tells me about their troubles, i can imagine them almost perfectly. then i feel them. and it sucks. majorly.
all that coupled with natural depression (or unnatural...?) doesn't really make much fun-ness.
in my eyes, i'm expendable. those afor-mentioned 2 friends of mine have more right to live than me, so i'd happily defend them with nothing short of my life, since it's not important.
please, don't stop coming to me with problems... i can take them. it's not helpful, and ATM i'm under a fair amount of stress (just switched schools and all. lots to catch up on), but i'll figure SOMETHING out.
on the whole, don't worry about me commiting suicide it's probably not going to happen. i just don't care if i die, especially if i can go out protecting one of my friends, since ultimately, it doesn't matter. who'll miss me?
this isn't fishing for sympathy, this is warning you, maybe helping you understand me a little better.
^_^
i am soooo depressing... :)
[edit] oh yes, *I* posted this at another forum. so i'm the winner! wahaa!
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You need happy pills.
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what the... get down from up there!
and no, happy pills are out of the question. they don't work and they are dangerous.
*grumbles something about timewarp*
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*can't remember his response from SG*
Something about wasting bandwidth. Screw you, and *Sniff*. (Not in that order... although.... :drevil: )
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i believe it was 'aww, that's too bad. now buck up and quit complaining. DO something about it! screw you you bastard for wasting our precious bandwidth'
something like that
sheesh... 2 responces in under 2 minutes >_<
[edit] ALDO! GET DOWN! MINE! :D
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you remind me of my girlfriend Grim, too bad i can't make you happy the same way i did for her (http://dynamic4.gamespy.com/~freespace/forums/images/smilies/drevil.gif)
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holy... no, you can't. so don't even think about it *shudders*
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if you think thats depressing you should hang out with me in a chat room for 4 hours, by the end of the session you will reject your religion and try to kill yourself. then you will be in the right state of mind for me to recriut you into my little cult.
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Go to a children's hospital and look at all the 6 year olds dying of cancer. That'll fix you right up and put things in perpective. Aside from that, I recommend you give apathy a try.
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In all seriousness, find some sort of love, its the best thing
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I think your more at competition with liberator than the winner of anything.
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Well, he actually has some RL friends. So I r teh "win"...
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Originally posted by Liberator
Well, he actually has some RL friends. So I r teh "win"...
BTW explain to me what it is that you contribute to by being a member of these forums? Other than complaints..
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Originally posted by Liberator
Well, he actually has some RL friends. So I r teh "win"...
nope, i dont. all online :)
Originally posted by Nuke
if you think thats depressing you should hang out with me in a chat room for 4 hours, by the end of the session you will reject your religion and try to kill yourself.
*yawn* been there, done that. gave up religon a long time ago, and have attempted twice. nothing new. :D
Originally posted by Rictor
Go to a children's hospital and look at all the 6 year olds dying of cancer. That'll fix you right up and put things in perpective. Aside from that, I recommend you give apathy a try.
...if this is supposed to reinforce my belief that i have no right to live and they do, then i'll do that right away... >_>
and i WAS posting this out of thinking it was funny... i am expendable anyway.
>_>
<_<
AM i the only one who finds this amusing?
oh, if i do try to commit suicide, do not worry, because i WILL email the hecate off to somebody beforehand.
*snickers and vanishes into a corner*
nuke, hang around ME for 4 hours in an otherwise empty chat room. when you finish sobbing and put the knife down, i will then let you revise that statement ;)
[edit] no, seriously... i wrote a short story once, and it's reduced more than one person to tears. :)
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Morons...
If you feel this applies to you, then it probably should.
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Originally posted by Grimloq
nuke, hang around ME for 4 hours in an otherwise empty chat room. when you finish sobbing and put the knife down, i will then let you revise that statement ;)
why dont you just join my cult, ive not time for your bull****. all you have to do is sit around and contemplate a means to anihilate all life on this pirifull little rock.
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Originally posted by Krackers87
BTW explain to me what it is that you contribute to by being a member of these forums? Other than complaints..
He helps counter all of the godless communism? :p
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Originally posted by Nuke
why dont you just join my cult, ive not time for your bull****. all you have to do is sit around and contemplate a means to anihilate all life on this pirifull little rock.
you do that too? :nervous:
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Im sure your not always depressed Grimloq.
When I feel depressed I just think of evil thoughts those always cheer me up :) <--------- Insane happy face
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Originally posted by Grimloq
nope, i dont. all online :)
What about those two you talked about on SG?
Originally posted by Krackers87
BTW explain to me what it is that you contribute to by being a member of these forums? Other than complaints..
My sterling personality? Actually, scratch that, that seems to do nothing but piss people off...
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He doesn't do any more than Clave, yet we keep him around :p
This isn't the kind society where everyone who contributes is allowed to stay and those who leach are booted. We'd never last as a community if that were the case. So please get off eachother's backs.
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How can you two be arguing about who's the most self-demeaning when you're arguing who has the more power over others?
Heck, how can you even be arguing for your side at all? :p
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falcon: 'imagine'? oh... oops :nervous:
lib: nope, they're online too. i KNOW that they are 'real' and who they say they are, though. they're real enough to me.
and i'm not DEPRESSED (well, i am, yes..) but i'm DEPRESSING. :)
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no your not.........
But thats just me.........
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Originally posted by Liberator
My sterling personality? Actually, scratch that, that seems to do nothing but piss people off...
You mean the constant and stubborn feeling sorry for yourself? Or the hi-jacking threads (especialy your own) into attempts at attention whoring?
Originally posted by Raa
He doesn't do any more than Clave, yet we keep him around :p
This isn't the kind society where everyone who contributes is allowed to stay and those who leach are booted. We'd never last as a community if that were the case. So please get off eachother's backs.
Oh i wish there was just leeching, instead of this..
And i also mean contributing in the form of intresting personalities / conversation. Not necessairly mods or campaigns or stuff of that sort.
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BE HAPPY!
(http://www.rachelleshaw.com/barney.gif)
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:wtf:
:lol:
:shaking:
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I have three suggestions.
First, view this. (http://www.deviantart.com/view/4670445/)
Second, view this. (http://www.deviantart.com/view/3698176/)
And third, take the advice of this. (http://www.deviantart.com/view/5804677/)
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And lo; he did reject the self-pitying attention whore from his hearth and hand
And spake: "Thou art none of mine; get a life, you whiny ******
And remembrest thou, next time you cut yourself and post the pictures to your Livejournal
That the true way is down the block, not across the street."
And then he spake unto his sons, and said "Ignore this sad sack
He is no good. Pay attention to me, instead. I have monkeys and fireworks!"
And it was good.
-Fellatio 23:13
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****** is censored?
Well that's a load of bloody ****ing horse****. Who in the name of screaming buggery gives a crap if you say '******'?
Come! Show yourself! I shall cast ye down, ye oh so extremely brittle, sheltered person!
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T'was Sarn of Wich. You can say **** all you want, but if you ***** it's censored. :p
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Grimloq, have you ever given nihilist philosophy much thought? i was reading an article about it and realised it really fit my archetype. all one has to do is accept the voidance of reality and deny all human understanding of what cannot be understood.
wrist slitting is old and doesnt work, pills on the other hand, can work, and if you by chance screw up the dosage you can at least tell people you were trying to get high. overdoce induced hallucinations are freaky and really go a long way to understanding those who are truely insane. really helped the psycology class report i did on shcizophrenia. bah why dont you just go and make a space ship or try to get laid or something.
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Say what?
****
******
Arse
****
Jesus
Moses
Bollocks
Tits
Fanny
Palestinian-State
Vagina
Ass
Mother
****er
Sonofa*****
Anal
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Which is it?
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Palestinian state isn't a filter word? Hmm... :drevil:
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Originally posted by Stryke 9
And lo; he did reject the self-pitying attention whore from his hearth and hand
And spake: "Thou art none of mine; get a life, you whiny ******
And remembrest thou, next time you cut yourself and post the pictures to your Livejournal
That the true way is down the block, not across the street."
And then he spake unto his sons, and said "Ignore this sad sack
He is no good. Pay attention to me, instead. I have monkeys and fireworks!"
And it was good.
-Fellatio 23:13
Amen
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Originally posted by Rictor
Go to a children's hospital and look at all the 6 year olds dying of cancer.
That's what I always do when I need a good laugh.
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Someone needs a hug.
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Michael Jackson I bet.
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No he needs soap on a string.
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First there was man,
and life was tough.
Then came Girls Aloud,
and all was good.
Its friday, plan something fun for the weekend, then lookforward to it.
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im gonna go to work and fix things and maybe i can get a date with the gal in the shoe department. life is good, about 0.3% of the time.
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er... i don't want any sympathy guys.
i thought this was funny! :p
plus, i wanted to see if anyone else has ever posted anything that self-demeaning.
so? :D shoot!
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the point is, if you were truly self-demeaning you wouldn't post anything here up for competition, because that would actually be vying for the position of being most self-demeaning, in which case you wouldn't be self-demeaning at all but rather holding yourself up for the post of self-demeanation (yes i made that word up). um, yeah.
i agree with stryke, this is attention whorage, only disguised thinly as curiosity.
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Originally posted by icespeed
i agree with stryke, this is attention whorage, only disguised thinly as curiosity.
*feels stupid* alrighty then...
and i think i get what you are saying.
>_>
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no, i lied. i have no idea what you just said. *pokes brain*
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Originally posted by Grimloq
er... i don't want any sympathy guys.
i thought this was funny! :p
plus, i wanted to see if anyone else has ever posted anything that self-demeaning.
so? :D shoot!
http://www.bash.org
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My every post in this forum, simply by existing, demeans me far more than your sort could ever imagine. I do not often call attention to the fact that I suffer through your collective inferiority because it is yet more beneath me to wonk on like a whiny Goth child about every little pissing thing.
Your turn.
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Grimloq is funny.
:D
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Originally posted by Grimloq
er... i don't want any sympathy guys.
i thought this was funny! :p
plus, i wanted to see if anyone else has ever posted anything that self-demeaning.
so? :D shoot!
I have! :D
Feel happy, brotha!
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as the only serious nihilist here i must say
behold the sweet suffering :D
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Originally posted by Charmande
Grimloq is funny.
:D
Oh, you bastard...
you just had to bump THIS thread..
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holy.... what have i done? >_< LOL!
*blinks* what... the... hell... i posted this two days ago! >_<
[edit#2] oh, that second line is edit #1.