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Title: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on October 31, 2015, 03:26:33 pm
 :banghead:  :banghead:  :banghead:  :banghead:

So I've been diagnosed with a pancreatic neuroendocrine tumor - essentially the same thing that Steve Jobs had.  Unlike Mr Jobs I have a non-functional one, which means I didn't get as much warning as he got (and squandered).  A non-functional one is not found until it either pinches something, or metastasizes.  Mine pinched the common biliary duct.  I still have some more time in the CT machine coming up to determine if metastasis has occured.  My primary tumor is already around 9cm (head-toe) x 7 cm (left/right) x 6 cm (front/back)... so pretty damn large.  There is a 3.7cm secondary tumor in the local lymph node (first place invaded by cancer typically according to my surgeon).   I have surgery on December 1st - a Whipple Procedure along with removal of the primary tumor, lymph node, and surrounding lymph nodes.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: The E on October 31, 2015, 03:29:30 pm
Damn, man. Best of luck to you.

Also, **** Cancer.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on October 31, 2015, 03:30:20 pm
Damn, man. Best of luck to you.

Also, **** Cancer.

Indeed. F*** Cancer.  Once i'm recovered i'm making a sign that says that and carrying it up mountains, to national parks, etc
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: watsisname on October 31, 2015, 03:32:17 pm
****.  :ick:  Stay strong there, Kaz.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Phantom Hoover on October 31, 2015, 03:33:58 pm
just don't try to cure it with fruit
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: General Battuta on October 31, 2015, 03:34:32 pm
Didn't he make that joke up front?

Thinking of you, man.
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Post by: Goober5000 on October 31, 2015, 03:36:00 pm
Oof.  Very sorry to hear about that.  Best wishes for a safe and effective surgery, and I will pray about it.
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Post by: Lepanto on October 31, 2015, 03:36:47 pm
Oof.  Very sorry to hear about that.  Best wishes for a safe and effective surgery, and I will pray about it.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Scourge of Ages on October 31, 2015, 03:46:48 pm
Damn, man. Best of luck to you.

Also, **** Cancer.

And this as well. Hope they can get it out of you quickly.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: GhylTarvoke on October 31, 2015, 04:02:31 pm
Good luck. I hope you'll be putting up those signs soon!

I've heard that statistically, people should fear heart disease more than cancer, but it seems like cancer is everywhere I look.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Bobboau on October 31, 2015, 05:27:51 pm
good luck, and it's good that they didn't find it any later than they did. Everyone here, all 15,000 of us, owe you a debt of gratitude for all of the work you've done over the years and you have left an impression on the world that will reverberate for a long time to come.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: headdie on October 31, 2015, 05:50:51 pm
Grief...  Good luck man.

Like some have said it seems to be everywhere atm :(

And as others have said, **** CANCER!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: The Dagger on October 31, 2015, 06:55:45 pm
Damn... Good luck man. Stay strong.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Boomer20 on October 31, 2015, 08:11:10 pm
As a cancer survivor I wish you good luck, stay strong and positive and kick that tumour in its equivalent of a posterior. 
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: castor on October 31, 2015, 08:31:11 pm
Damned sneak attacks :mad2:
Good luck for the battle!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: jr2 on October 31, 2015, 09:53:16 pm
Ouch.   :nono:  Said a prayer for you, keep us posted (when / if you have time!).  Hope this turns out in your favor.   :blah:
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Mongoose on October 31, 2015, 09:56:00 pm
Well ****. :( Best of luck, and fight that ****er hard.
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Post by: deathspeed on October 31, 2015, 10:17:42 pm
That sucks.  Thoughts and prayers going out for you.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: 0rph3u5 on November 01, 2015, 12:04:06 am
Take (small) comfort in the fact that you got a cancer with a tumor ... some forms of cancer don't give you that opening to begin with

And should you go into chemo, please prepare your loved ones for it ... even if you don't loose your hair the effects of chemo-therapy are visible and I have to say quite terrifiy to witness; my late father (who had a b-cell lymphoma) looked thinner and more sickly every time I saw him, even if his speech and mannerism didn't show any change. It was one of the hardest things to deal with...

Anyway, I will raise a glass to health and wish you best of luck in beating this...
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Hellstryker on November 01, 2015, 02:26:59 am
Good luck, man.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Jeff Vader on November 01, 2015, 04:08:49 am
Be strong, comrade.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: T-Man on November 01, 2015, 04:36:04 am
I'm really sorry to hear Kazan. Wish you all the best with the operation and treatments; let us know how it goes.
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Post by: Colonol Dekker on November 01, 2015, 05:10:27 am
Heartfelt hug.
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Post by: karajorma on November 01, 2015, 05:40:23 am
Sorry to hear that Kazan. I'll definitely be thinking of you.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: NGTM-1R on November 01, 2015, 10:29:12 am
I have a terrible feeling I'm reading the result of Kazan's social-media will, as I can't think we were high up the list of people he felt necessary to inform...

Hopefully I'm not.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: est1895 on November 01, 2015, 12:05:51 pm
I said a prayer Kazan. Have faith.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: NeonShivan on November 01, 2015, 12:06:24 pm
Kazan,

AFAIK, you are one of the older members of the SCP community (do not quote me on that), your tools had helped me along learning to mod Freespace at a young age and I am exceptionally grateful of your assistance. I am not religious, so I have no prayers to send you, I am too young, so I cannot propose a toast, but what I can do, is wish you good luck and hope for the best. I do not know you personally, but I am sure you still have much left to do in life. Don't leave your work unfinished, please, for the sake of yourself and others around you, defeat your inner demons. I cannot say I personally know the feeling of losing someone close, but I am sure it is simply indescribable, no author could possibly be able to put such grief into proper English, and hopefully should never be able to. But, being a member of such a wonderful community, I am certain you will not fall so easily.

I again, wish you the best of luck and a speedy recovery.

Also, to keep up with what the others are saying:

**** cancer.

TL;DR:

Spoiler:
Don't die please, we all love you  ;)
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: MP-Ryan on November 01, 2015, 12:32:24 pm
Damn, man. Best of luck to you.

Also, **** Cancer.

Ditto.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Galemp on November 01, 2015, 01:54:08 pm
Oh man... Kazan, best of luck and I hope the numbers are on your side.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on November 01, 2015, 02:32:05 pm
Thanks guys :)  Really hoping there is no freaking metastasis.  **** Cancer.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: NGTM-1R on November 01, 2015, 03:30:27 pm
Thanks guys :)  Really hoping there is no freaking metastasis.  **** Cancer.

This makes me feel inexplicably better.

And then very much explicably worse. Blah.

Be well. Or at least better.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Bobboau on November 02, 2015, 12:59:59 am
kick that rebel scum's ass Kaz :)
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: vyper on November 02, 2015, 03:01:34 am
Just came back to say best of luck mate.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Rodo on November 02, 2015, 09:07:42 am
Everytime someone mentions this I get this nagging feeling I cannot shake off for hours. It's like the only disease I genuinely dread, nothing else comes close.
I wish you the best man, beat it.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Luis Dias on November 02, 2015, 09:13:09 am
Godspeed Kazam, all for the best.
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Post by: ZeroCooL on November 02, 2015, 10:04:47 am
isn´t over yet pilot =) .. godspeed. all for the best.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on November 02, 2015, 12:15:51 pm
It's like the only disease I genuinely dread, nothing else comes close.

dude you and me both
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Col.Hornet on November 02, 2015, 03:26:31 pm
Sorry to hear that. I know too well how does dealing with that sh** look like. I lost my grandmother this year and my close friend lost his mother too. Fkn plague <add a crappy quality of cancer healing in Poland to it and in most cases it means a death sentence> That's why I'm going to visit a doctor more often then usually.

Stay strong pilot. There are still a bunches of Shivans to kill ;) 
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: WeatherOp on November 02, 2015, 03:30:54 pm
Prayers coming from my end as well for strength to endure and healing in the end.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Black Wolf on November 02, 2015, 03:39:33 pm
If I know anything about you Kaz I know that you're far, far too stubborn to let something like this get you. Stay strong mate.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: jdjtcagle on November 02, 2015, 04:30:10 pm
Very sorry to hear about your condition Kazan. Best of luck to you.
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Post by: tomimaki on November 02, 2015, 06:47:24 pm
Good luck, Kazan.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on November 03, 2015, 06:28:35 pm
Imaging Update -> Good news! No metastasis!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Phantom Hoover on November 03, 2015, 06:30:31 pm
That's fantastic news! Good luck with the surgery!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: AdmiralRalwood on November 03, 2015, 07:17:47 pm
Great to hear, Kazan; good luck, and **** Cancer™!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Goober5000 on November 03, 2015, 10:36:40 pm
Imaging Update -> Good news! No metastasis!

Wonderful!  Here's to a successful surgery on December 1st.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Droid803 on November 04, 2015, 12:34:44 am
Good luck!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: headdie on November 04, 2015, 01:47:51 am
Imaging Update -> Good news! No metastasis!

Thank goodness, hope it stays that way!  and very best of luck on your treatment
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: jedi19941 on November 04, 2015, 06:37:32 am
Stay strong, comrade. And Godspeed!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Rodo on November 04, 2015, 12:04:43 pm
Cool stuff man, really glad for you. :yes:
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: est1895 on November 04, 2015, 10:37:06 pm
Bring a laptop or cell phone with you Kazan so you can keep in touch.  Praise God!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Bobboau on November 05, 2015, 05:33:48 pm
Praise God!
you know better, not here dude.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: CT27 on November 05, 2015, 06:03:49 pm
Praise God!
you know better, not here dude.


Out of curiosity, what was wrong with him saying that?  People have said they're giving Kazan prayers so what's wrong with the quote?
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Bobboau on November 05, 2015, 06:12:16 pm
Kazan is the only forum member on HLP to possibly challenge me for title of most militant atheist, the wars he often single handedly waged against the forces of faith, ignorance, and irreason are as of legend.
and now is not the time and this is not the place, and I should have handled that with a PM but it's too late for me to take it back now.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on November 05, 2015, 08:46:55 pm
I have been taking the "i'll pray for you" statements in the manner in which they are meant: well wishes.

But yes, Bobboau is on the money that saying "Praise god" in my presence is a good way to annoy me very rapidly.  I was just  ignoring it though.

If you want to praise someone praise my doctors and all the hard work and long years they put into their educations, and the scientists who did decades of grueling and often disappointing research into treatment options, and the research patients who volunteered to be subjects for experimental treatment.


Looks like I might get to get some skiing in before my surgery if the weather forecast for the next 14 days holds up :)
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: IronBeer on November 06, 2015, 09:12:18 am
Glad to hear things are looking up for you, Kazan. Keeping a positive outlook can only help.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Phantom Hoover on November 06, 2015, 09:51:19 am
Looks like I might get to get some skiing in before my surgery if the weather forecast for the next 14 days holds up :)

sorry to hear that it's

all downhill from here
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: headdie on November 06, 2015, 10:03:01 am
Phantom Hoover :beamz: Headdie
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Bobboau on November 06, 2015, 11:00:25 am
ah, skiing, down hill, I see what you did there.
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Kazan on November 06, 2015, 11:09:39 am
Looks like I might get to get some skiing in before my surgery if the weather forecast for the next 14 days holds up :)

sorry to hear that it's

all downhill from here

that was bad and you should feel bad :)
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Darklord42 on November 06, 2015, 11:44:32 pm
If you want to praise someone praise my doctors and all the hard work and long years they put into their educations, and the scientists who did decades of grueling and often disappointing research into treatment options, and the research patients who volunteered to be subjects for experimental treatment.

Yes, but that's a real mouthful. I can see how thanking the one guy might be a little easier.  Like how we say Happy Holidays. :)

I wish you all the best!  Glad to hear that it did not metastasize and **** cancer!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: FlamingCobra on November 08, 2015, 09:12:32 pm
(http://i.imgur.com/iwrEAie.png)
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Post by: Grizzly on November 09, 2015, 01:15:50 pm
Good luck, Kazan :)
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Post by: Flaser on November 09, 2015, 03:46:44 pm
Best wishes Kazan! May you kick this one and be rid of it from here on.
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Post by: Gortef on November 12, 2015, 03:38:03 pm
Damn sorry to hear that Kazan. Stay strong mate!
Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: desertstorm on November 13, 2015, 12:14:04 am
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Title: Re: I have cancer
Post by: Unknown Target on November 13, 2015, 07:14:26 am
Good luck, Kazan.