I just finished national service today, and am once again a Civilian, living in Singapore. This should be a happy day for me; for many a person dreams of the day national service finishes and they can get out of the dreadful experiences that they go through daily.
But now....on the day I am supposed to be happy....I have a bug of a situation.
As it stands, my $$ situation isn't enough to keep me going for much longer (hence im headed over to Maylasia to stay with my uncle, as it'll reduce living costs till my parents can arrive [small note - i'll be unavailable for that week other than just posting and stuff]), which means that now I have two options:
Either I can stay in the heavenly city that is Singapore, get a job (if you have 'o' levels or equivalent, it isn't too hard to find one) and support myself and my bro for a while, but at the risk of one of us killing the other as well as generally going through the stress of a hell of a lot of work all over again, as well as the daily and normal stress of worrying over bills, my health, you know, everyday stuff. I enjoy that to an extent, and with extra pay that might come with hard work, it's a good option.
Or, the other option is that I can go back to India and continue my education/finish my 'A' levels. The problem with this is that...well, Bangalore is
hell right now, and it doesn't look like its going to get any better. Add ot that the fact htat I'll have to finish two years portions in
four months before the exams, it means an even more hectic schedule - worse still, it is in my weaker subjects - maths (the evilness!). However, there at least I have my parents to help look after me and its generally less responsibility overall. It's also a city I knew a lot longer than I did singapore, and at the least I know I can fit in there...plus being in hte army goes a long way there, unlike in Singapore where practically every male has been through it.
I'm having a very, very hard time deciding..it's like choosing to stagnate peacefully in heaven, or flourish painfully in hell. The reason I posted here was for the absence notice, as well as maybe get some advice from those that have travelled life far, far longer than me. :/
which would you choose? Which path do you know is better or at least, think so?
