I didn't know what was going to happen.
I went out there with full of blood and thunder and I killed Shivans like the hand of Death himself. I fought hard. I know I must have called for a rearm so often the support pilots were sick of me. I protected my ships.
Then, the call came to get my sorry tail to the jumpnode. I ran. I worked my burners like a madman and, in the end, I was enveloped by the expanding shockwave of stellar material.
I sat there and stared at my screen as the credits scrolled and I suffered, knowing that I had failed, but that I had somehow won: the end credits were rolling after all.
If I had just sat in the node and let those ships die, I'd not have been satisfied. I'd have like I had missed some crucial bit of the game. Its a space combat game and I played it for the joy and terror and thrill and agony of the fight. Why skip all that for basic expediency? Its not worth it.
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--Mik
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