...am I the only one who thinks that most of ST went downhill somewhere in the middle of TNG?
It originally had people like Fred Saberhagen, Frederik Pohl witting the episodes.... clever, truly clever people, who could really ask clever, clever questions. Granted Rodenberry was a mad utopist, but given that he was living in a madhouse - that Cold War America - his madness has a purpose to it, a counterforce to all the gun-ho idiocy that his world was immersed in.
BTW: I'm glad an0n is contributing again. He's the one True Troll who actually makes clever comments meant to infuriate you, whereas the rest is just spouting inflammatory but stupid gravel.
As to killing yourself: please tell me you're joking! You'd ****ing hack yourself up in a basement to achieve some dubious honor that only geeks would take seriously? Hell, just switch on a TV, and see the bastards who truly ****ed you and your life get their golden parachutes as they jump out of the flaming wreck that used to be your great nation...
...no, just no. If you go out, at least have the guts to do it guns blazing, blasting the guys who truly trapped you.
Here, an instruction manual:
Going Postal, by Mark Ames.