[jg18]

Well, if it is any consolation, it is still less worse then some of the stories my mother comes home with (she works at an instution for helping blind or visually impaired people). Several cases of going from fully visually capable to completely blind have happened in a row.

Thanks, but I'm afraid it doesn't help a whole lot. There are starving children everywhere and people dying in places like Syria, but somehow that knowledge doesn't help much, either. Reminds me of this T-shirt slogan:




Anyway, sorry to hear you're still struggling with depression (I know you've mentioned it here before) and that you're having trouble getting treatment. I didn't know your family was unsympathetic. As Battuta said, that can make it so much worse. Hope you get help soon.

[perihelion]

I am currently attempting to regain acces to medical help. I have been weighed down by my own lack of motivation and awfull BUREAUCRACY GRRR that has caused some problems.
I also have a family that really wants to see me perform and thinks it is something you can just will trough, but I am rather unwilling to dissapoint them. At the current rate I will disappoint them sooner or later anyhow *sigh*.

Very sorry to hear this.  I've been there.  If at all possible, get a new doctor as soon as you can.  I am not exactly the poster child for "better living through chemistry!!!11!!1" but I know I couldn't have gotten out of the darkest parts of my life without help.  Combo of moderate depression, GAD, and according to my latest shrink, bi-polar disorder.  (Frankly, I'm not sure I see how I fit the last one.  I'd fricking LOVE to go through a manic high, but I don't recall ever having one.)

But anyway, are you still on meds from your previous doctor?  One thing I noticed whilst trying out various anti-depressants is that, while they did blunt the intensity of the depression (the desperation, the hopelessness) to a point where it was bearable, in a lot of ways the state that emerged afterwards was very depression-like as well.  I was not suicidal, but I can understand why someone might become that way under the influence of SSRI's.  I was so dadgum numb, it was very hard to care about anything.  Very hard to care enough to get out of bed in the morning, drag my butt to work / class, and finish my degree.

Some of what I'm hearing from you sounds very similar.  So, if you are still on meds, a change in regimen might be in order.  A doctor and professional evaluation is required for that.

Sorry you are having to go through this.  You are not alone.

[An4ximandros]

Sanctum 2 is on sale at ~ 2 Dollars on Steam... super tempted to get it...

[Grizzly]

Thank you all for your support.

I am not on meds at the moment, so I will probably re-instate that as soon as I get to the doctor this friday. Let's see how it works out.

[Lorric]

Thank you all for your support.

I am not on meds at the moment, so I will probably re-instate that as soon as I get to the doctor this friday. Let's see how it works out.

Good luck.

[Polpolion]

Classes here at umich were just cancelled due to weather for the first time since the 1970s. And it happened to be the one day of the week that I have all my classes.

[Kopachris]

I own fs2open.org and fs2open.com now.  Mwahahahaha!

(Until I can think of something to do with them, I set up fs2open.org to redirect to hard-light.net/forums.  If I still can't put them to good use after a year, I'll let them expire.)

[Grizzly]

Isn't there an official SCP website? Use that .

Hmm. When I look at what Team Daidelos does with Il2: 1946, which are official patches which actually shy away a bit from keeping stuff original, I wonder what we could do with such an approach. Hmm. Then again, Il2 is set during WW2 and the extensions are basically additions to the already existing fleets, and all the new stuff is just drawing from history, which we can;t do with FS2... *sigh*.

In other news, I have decided to give up my geo-informatics study. I had to, and keep making, sacrifices towards a goal which in the end is simply not worht it. Perhaps the biggest thing was that I already have a clear path in my mind involving Earth Sciences, and the steady revelation that I would be giving up just that if I continued down this path, turning myself into a person and doing stuff I ultimately... simply don't like. Also, I am simply currently not capapble of mentally doing ... anything. I need to fix that first.

[Kopachris]

Isn't there an official SCP website? Use that .

Theoretically, the most "official" SCP website is scp.indiegames.us, but HLP is a more central location for everything FS2_Open.

[Wobble73]

Speaking of cats (as now in the title), I lost my cat last night. We had to have her put down, she nearly reached her nineteenth birthday this May too. She was dehydrated and had Renal failure. Rest in Peace Felli. 

[Nuke]

poor kitty. least she lived a full life and then some.

i have 3 cats. one is getting up to 13, and the other is 11, and of course the noob. none of the older kitties are remotely healthy so i dont expect them to live more than a couple years longer.

[perihelion]

28 years ago today, I was in 2nd grade.  The whole school had wheeled tv's into every class room to watch the Challenger launch.  We saw it launch to a chorus of "ooooooh"s and "cool!"s.  And then I watched those people die and a million dreams die with them.  I was 8.  I don't remember much about my life from that far back other than impressions.  But I still remember the look of horror on my teacher's face and the numb incomprehension on the other kids.  I remember the grown-ups crying.  I remember one of kids asking, "What happened?  What happened?"

So much lost, in an instant.

[Nuke]

some asshole in a grader tried to mow down one of my kitties just now. he was clearly accelerating. cat managed to dodge out of the way in time. mom called the cops.

[Aardwolf]

Speaking of "calling the cops"...

A woman under the employ of my parents "scheduled" an appointment with me today (without my affirmation or consent), came to my house, bypassed the lock on the door to my room, and attempted to forcibly get me out of bed. I feel this qualifies as assault.

Then, when I retreated to the bathroom, she persisted in talking to me through the door even after I clearly stated I do not wish to talk to or hear from her. I feel this qualifies as harassment.

 



no I haven't actually called the cops on her

[FireSpawn]

So, it looks like i'm off to Wolverhampton for a night and a day from the 13th to the 14th. That's presuming that I won't have a new job by then.

[Grizzly]

no I haven't actually called the cops on her

Fortune always favours the bold. Notify the cops (you don't have to go 112, file a report rather). Without affirmation or consent entering your house is only okay if your parents agreed to it prior (and they have to know the time and date beforehand), but I am quite sure that bypassing the lock on your own room actually counts as breaking-and-entering or house-peace-disturbance as it's called in NL. Heck, I got charged for house-peace-disturbance for entering someone elses room which lacked a lock in order to shut down the stereo which was blaring at extremely high volumes whilst the owner wasn't there.
(Luckily he had given me several open invites to come there anytime I wanted, so... but it was quite a hassle, I should have cut the power)

Or discuss it with your parents first, and acknowlegde that you consider this an option. It's your goddamn room.
The only case I would consider it acceptable is if you personally agreed to such measures being taken beforehand from ... say... preventing you from committing suicide.

[Aardwolf]

No, the bypassing of the lock was with my parents' permission, given at the time and place it happened. But I don't think any amount of parental permission makes it ok for her to forcibly uncover me in my bed (esp. since I'm not a minor anymore). And I don't know how the law works as far as harassment, but ... bleh.

[Lorric]

No, the bypassing of the lock was with my parents' permission, given at the time and place it happened. But I don't think any amount of parental permission makes it ok for her to forcibly uncover me in my bed (esp. since I'm not a minor anymore). And I don't know how the law works as far as harassment, but ... bleh.

This all sounds waaaaay over the line to me.

[An4ximandros]

Someone is trying to sue NASA http://www.scribd.com/doc/203107954/NASA-Lawsuit-Filing

Aardwolf: That sounds like a really nasty situation... Why would your parents even allow that?

[Nakura]

What if I went back in time and prevented Sony from making the console deal with Nintendo?
-I would nullify the existence of the PlayStation and Xbox.
-PC gaming wouldn't have died; though it has been revived thanks to Steam.
-Nintendo wouldn't have switched to making casual gimmicks.
-Sega would still be alive and we'd get a Dreamcast 2.
-3DO Mark 2, Atari Jaguar 2 and Neo Geo 64-bit might have been invented.
-Without the Xbox and PlayStation making gaming mainstream, video games might still be good.

Hey guys, I just saved video games!