Learned that I can't drink coffee and thus anything with caffeine (currently feeling like I'm on the brink of a panic attack, nothing to trigger it from happening so that's good, gotta wait for the feeling to die off in the meantime)
Had to give up alcohol, now I have to give up coffee? God dammit meds
Strangest feeling ever, but this was to be expected apparently so at least I know **** be doing something
Ugh. Been there. I never drink alcohol, so that wasn't an issue with me, but I did have to give up caffeine for about a year. That sucked. I don't think it was so much
because of my meds as it was the underlying anxiety they were trying to treat.
I remember this one time in the middle of it all, we'd flown back to Texas to see our families for Christmas. We were finally away from all of the insanity of grad school, and I was just sitting with Mom and Dad having some breakfast, and I just started thinking about "The Bad Place
TM" and my heart started pounding so hard I could hardly hear anything else. I had to go lay down on the couch, and Mom just looked like she was about to cry.
...It occurs to me that this probably isn't helpful. How about this, then. It did end. It did get better. It took awhile, but we're all ok now.
